I didn't TRUST any of you because I knew something was WRONG but I couldn't figure out with WHO. A suspicion that had you running INTERVENTIONS on me while that THING ran around with Sasha's FACE on and ELIAS was clubbing old men over the head with a PIPE.
Just because I wasn't doing what YOU wanted didn't mean I wasn't trying to HELP. And I couldn't TELL you because I didn't know which one of you would try to MURDER us.
PLEASE tell me how I was supposed to know which one of you to trust when NO ONE knew about Sasha. When you were all telling me I was INSANE.
EXCEPT for that bit where 'SASHA' wasn't SASHA, of course.
You're the one who got me this damn job in the first
place
You knew me longer than any of the others, and you knew
what Sasha and I were, and then she was dead and none of us knew and then
the thing wearing her was dead and we were nearly dead and you left us like
that
But you're right. How could you ever, ever, EVER
POSSIBLY be wrong???
I KNEW SASHA and that THING had me fooled the same as anyone. For goodness sake, Tim, I was suspecting MARTIN for a time. I didn't
I COULDN'T trust ANYONE. The ONLY one I could trust was MYSELF and TRUST me, I doubted THAT more than once, far too many times in fact, because if I trusted the WRONG one I could get all of the rest of you KILLED.
I CAN'T AFFORD to be wrong, Tim.
[ There's a short pause.]
I couldn't afford to be wrong.
And then I was.
The only reason I'm alive, you're alive, ANY of us are alive, is because of Jurgen bloody Leitner.
Believe me at LEAST that there is nothing I find more galling than that.
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Date: 2019-01-18 02:05 am (UTC)I didn't TRUST any of you because I knew something was WRONG but I couldn't figure out with WHO. A suspicion that had you running INTERVENTIONS on me while that THING ran around with Sasha's FACE on and ELIAS was clubbing old men over the head with a PIPE.
Just because I wasn't doing what YOU wanted didn't mean I wasn't trying to HELP. And I couldn't TELL you because I didn't know which one of you would try to MURDER us.
PLEASE tell me how I was supposed to know which one of you to trust when NO ONE knew about Sasha. When you were all telling me I was INSANE.
EXCEPT for that bit where 'SASHA' wasn't SASHA, of course.
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Date: 2019-01-18 02:14 am (UTC)Because you KNEW me, Jon
You're the one who got me this damn job in the first place
You knew me longer than any of the others, and you knew what Sasha and I were, and then she was dead and none of us knew and then the thing wearing her was dead and we were nearly dead and you left us like that
But you're right. How could you ever, ever, EVER POSSIBLY be wrong???
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Date: 2019-01-18 02:20 am (UTC)I KNEW SASHA and that THING had me fooled the same as anyone. For goodness sake, Tim, I was suspecting MARTIN for a time. I didn't
I COULDN'T trust ANYONE. The ONLY one I could trust was MYSELF and TRUST me, I doubted THAT more than once, far too many times in fact, because if I trusted the WRONG one I could get all of the rest of you KILLED.
I CAN'T AFFORD to be wrong, Tim.
[ There's a short pause.]
I couldn't afford to be wrong.
And then I was.
The only reason I'm alive, you're alive, ANY of us are alive, is because of Jurgen bloody Leitner.
Believe me at LEAST that there is nothing I find more galling than that.