[ The words hit like blows, and he reels a little as Tim goes, shoulders hunching in on him. His fingers hold carefully to the bottle but he doesn't even open it.]
I already knew I'd lost Sasha, all right? I couldn't-
I couldn't lose any more of you.
I thought- [ He draws in a breath.] I thought I was doomed anyway. I felt, even then- I felt like I was in too deep. The way- the way I heard Michael say 'Archivist'...
It was something I couldn't shake. And I thought-
I thought I had to do everything I could before it, this place, the monsters...
Before it all took me down.
[ He swallows and his head is still bowed.]
I didn't know, Tim. I didn't know about Danny. I didn't- I didn't know how bad it would be. I'm sorry.
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Date: 2019-03-18 12:27 am (UTC)I already knew I'd lost Sasha, all right? I couldn't-
I couldn't lose any more of you.
I thought- [ He draws in a breath.] I thought I was doomed anyway. I felt, even then- I felt like I was in too deep. The way- the way I heard Michael say 'Archivist'...
It was something I couldn't shake. And I thought-
I thought I had to do everything I could before it, this place, the monsters...
Before it all took me down.
[ He swallows and his head is still bowed.]
I didn't know, Tim. I didn't know about Danny. I didn't- I didn't know how bad it would be. I'm sorry.